Emergency Room

Yesterday I woke up with a migraine. It was also almost 90 out yesterday. So I got up and turned the air on and laid back down. I tried to spend a lot of time laying down resting because I was in a lot of pain. I was laying down in my bed watching TV and playing with Kailyn. She had brought some toys on to my bed. Well she ended up jumping on me, and her knee landed directly on my abdomen. Then I started having cramping type pains. A little while later, Kailyn got up and shut my bedroom door and went in to the living room. I was still laying in bed with a cool rag on my forehead. A few minutes later I hear a woman yelling hello in my living room, so I jumped up and ran out there. She said "did you know your daughter was playnig outside by herself?" and had Kailyns hand. Kailyn was naked except for a diaper because it was so hot. I said no and started freaking out and thanking the lady. I scooped Kailyn up and came inside and just broke down. I bawled for about two hours straight. I cried so hard that I was throwing up. Anything could have happened. Well all the crying and puking and everything made my head hurt ten times worse, and my stomach was still hurting. So when Kevin got home, we took Kailyn to my parents house and I went to the ER. They gave me morphine and nausea medication, and did an ultrasound of the baby. They couldnt tell gender (I asked lol) but the baby looked fantastic. S/he was moving all around doing somersaults and enjoying life. Heart rate was 153 bpm. Now the cramping is gone, but I still have a headache, and I still feel like the most negligent, inadequate mom in the world. Anything could have happened to Kailyn. I am so grateful it didnt, but I dont think I have ever been more scared and relieved at the same time. I cried almost all night long over the "could haves and what ifs." I put a child safety thing on the door knob, and tonight Kevin is putting a chain on it. I just keep remembering the tragedy stories that sound a lot like that. There was an angel sitting on her shoulder, and for that I am so very grateful. But I still feel absolutely horrific.

It happened!

Last night my stomach was hurting really bad. It felt like cramping, pulling, itching, it just all around sucked. Then this morning I went to put my pants on...and yep, cant button them. Good thing Kohl's is having a sale on maternity clothes!

First regular OB appt

I had my first scheduled "regular" OB appointment today. I have been very nervous because I have been cramping pretty badly. To the point where it was making me lose my breath. (which is why I havent updated my pregnancy blog, because i thought the pregnancy was going to end :-/) The night before last I had a very vivid dream that the baby was big, and moving around, and I could feel it moving and just loved it. Then last night I dreamt that I went to the doctor and they found the heartbeat and it was 162. Today first I had my OB education appointment, where I was told "dont smoke, drink, do drugs, change kitty litter etc etc etc" then we went to lunch, then I had my appointment. I told the doctor that my biggest concern was the cramping. I told her all about it, about how it gets horrible when I am up and moving around, but a few minutes after laying down it feels better. I told her even walking a few feet causes cramping that feels like AF is here. She smiled and kept nodding. When I finished my huge long worry spiel that I had been holding in for four or 5 days, she kind of laughs a little and says "welcome to round ligament pain with your second baby! Its perfectly normal" I really liked this dr, she was very nice, and listened to all of my concerns without making me feel silly. She reassured me that this pregnancy is going to be more painful in that way, and the hip pain way because I am overweight and because this is my 2nd baby. Then she put the doppler on my tummy. I was so scared, I held my breath and prayed. Then we heard the thud thud thud real fast. It was so beautiful. I cried. The heartrate was 172! lol my dream was ten off! So everything is perfect! She okayed sex again now because I am 6 days away from being in my 2nd trimester, and she said the baby's heartrate was excellent, good and strong. So she said she is not concerned with that. I am still high risk, because of the infertility issues I had, but I am good to go for four weeks. My next appointment is the after we get home from Tennessee! Which I also okayed and ran by her. lol It was an overall excellent and relieving appointment.