Oh, My Aching Back!

I feel like I have been hit by a truck! My back has been hurting so bad that I can barely function. Sleep is nearly out of the question. I started physical therapy, but it is kind of lame. they stretch me for 10 minutes, moving me in ways that I have to move all day anyway to tend to Kailyn. Then they massage me for about 10 minutes, then send me home. It is a hassle, and I dont know if I will be going much longer. I am exhausted. Sleeping has been an eventful task lately, with not much rest coming from it. I toss and turn, and each toss and turn is extremely painful. I have resorted to taking the pain killers the doctor prescribed at night time so I can get SOME sleep. But as soon as it wears off, I am up again. Laying down is just not my favorite thing.

I didnt post about my last doctors appointment. It went well. I still havent gained any weight, and baby is still sounding and being fabulous. They scheduled me an ultrasound for my next appointment, as well as taking the glucose test. I am not so thrilled about the glucose test. Those are not fun. However I am stoked to see my baby again! She is moving so much more these days. Kevin is feeling her on a daily basis, and it seems to amaze him. I really think he will be more helpful this time than he was when Kailyn was a newborn.

Kailyn now believes the baby's name is Abigail. Kevin taught her that the baby in mommy's belly is her little sister, and her name is Abigail. Kai thinks its hilarious that we tell her that there is baby in there. However since a couple of my friends were pregnant, then had babies, she is KIND OF understanding. I keep trying to explain that when the baby is big enough in my belly, I am going to go to the hospital to have a doctor help me get her out of my tummy, then we will all be coming home, and the baby will be living with us. She seems okay with the idea right now, but we will see. I am terrified at how she is going to react when the time actually comes. I hope its love at first sight instead of "who is this intruder in my house?" I am scared of becoming a mother of 2, but excited as well.

Yay for good doctors!

I went to the doctor this morning to follow up on my L&D trip. The doctor was less than impressed with how things went at L&D. I told him all about it, and the doctor I saw today still thinks UTI. The doctor at the L&D never sent my urine in for a culture, even though he said he was going to. @@ So I peed in another cup today to have that one cultured. He also gave me the ok, and wants me to take 800mg of ibruprofen every 8 hours for 3 days to see if that helps my back. He also referred me to physical therapy to help my back pain. After seeing a competent doctor, I actually feel like I may feel better soon. Yay!

Incompetent Doctor

I called my doctors office, and they told me to get my booty to L&D asap. So off I went. They hooked me up to the monitors right away, and the nurses were all incredibly impressed at how awesome my little girls heart rate was at only 21 weeks with one of the strap on monitors. While hooking me up they said "dont be alarmed if we cant get it etc" and kept telling me that it would be hard to track her heart, and dont be alarmed, etc. But they were able to track it for most of the nearly 5 hours I was there. I was proud that her heart was that strong. Every person that came in commented on how awesome she sounded, which made me feel very good. Anyway, I peed in a cup, and it was so cloudy that you could barely see through it. They asked if I was dehydrated. I have made it a goal to drink 4 or 5 - 17 oz water bottles per day, and been doing so well. I am not dehydrated. so the nurse said UTI right away. After a little while, they noticed I was having contractions, not regular, not strong, but they were slightly painful and very uncomfortable. Felt like cramps. She said "I am sure the doctor will give you a shot of trebutaline (sp) when he comes in) Kept monitoring me. Finally the doctor came in and told me that I was not having contractions, my pee looked "Great!" and checked me with a speculum for leaking fluid, and did the finger test. Said all that looked good and I could go home. I was like "what?!" I am still extremely uncomfortable, in pain, and havent got any answers! He said that I need to come back if I have more than 6 contractions in an hour. I said "I am only 21 weeks!" he said that even a good, strong painful contraction once per hour regularly I do not need to come in. He repeated it like 5 times, 6 contractions in an hour. He said I was 100% perfectly normal, everything looked fabulous. I told him "its not fabulous staying up unable to sleep because of contractions and vaginal pressure all night, especially at 21 weeks!" His words were "well you should have come in then, when it was worse" I told him so having watery discharge out of nowhere to the point of wearing a pad, vaginal pain and pressure almost to the point of tears, contraction/cramp things all hitting within an hour of each other, and all hitting strong was PERFECTLY NORMAL?! He stared at me for a minute, then said "I suppose so." I was pissed. I asked him if he was going to culture my urine for a better look at if I have a UTI, and he looked at me dumbfounded and said "sure. I supposed we can do that" I looked at Kevin, and Kevin said "lets go" so we left. I didnt even wait for discharge papers. I just got up, got dressed and left. so MY PLAN is to take it very easy the next few days, and if my symptoms get worse or wont go away, then I will schedule an appt with a doctor that I trust. But in the mean time it IS good to know that my cervix is closed tightly, up high and thick, and that its not amniotic fluid leaking. I have no burning or anything when I pee, so if i do have a UTI, it is not flaring or whatever, and can wait until I see if this dimwitted asshole really is going to culture my pee or not. I was so mad when I left, and so frustrated, and so everything I just started crying. Doctors that dont care need fired. plain and simple.

So uncomfortable!

Last night I was laying down watching a movie, and my lower abdomen started aching really bad. Then I started getting sharp pains in my crotch, followed by pressure. Then it changed to a very strong ache and pressure down there until about 5 this morning when I was finally able to fall asleep. It kept me up. Now it has subsided a bit, and it is still uncomfortable, but I wouldnt call it painful anymore. If this doesnt go away soon, I think I will call the doctor.

Its a GIRL!

Well after my ultrasound at the doctor's office being only 75% sure of gender, I decided to have an elective 3d/4d ultrasound. It was absolutely amazing! Jen took me since Kevin had to work, and it was so awesome seeing my little baby moving all around. It was an awesome experience, I am so happy I did it. This tech said she is 100% sure that we are having a girl! Yay!

19 week doctors appt

I had my doctors appointment on Tuesday. It went well! BP looked good, and I am still down 5 lbs from pre-pregnancy weight, which is good. I talked to the doctor about labor and delivery, and he said that because Kailyn's shoulder got stuck when I was delivering her, that there is a 50-75% chance that it will happen again. I told him that I would PREFER a vaginal delivery, but if we needed to do a c-section for the safety of both of us, that would be fine. He said that what we will do is starting at about 32 weeks, he will do weekly ultrasounds to make sure that the baby is growing on target, head down, positioned perfectly. If I go in to labor and the baby is still positioned perfectly, then I can do vaginal, but if even one thing looks a little off, we will bail and do a c-section. He said that if the baby gets too big, then I will be induced early. During my ultrasound, baby weighed approximately 12 ounces, which is in the 85th percentile. So he said baby is already big, and the chances of induction because of size is very good. He also said that he would not be surprised in the slightest if I have gestational diabetes. I get tested for that at 28 weeks. If I fail that, then they will check baby's size again by ultrasound that day. The ultrasound looked great! The doctor's exact words were "your kid rocks!". Everything anatomically looked perfect. But as far as gender, the baby had its foot up under its butt, and would not show us. So I am going in for an elective ultrasound in Yakima tomorrow. I am super excited for that. The tech said she is 70% sure its a girl. I want higher odds than that! I am so excited for everything! I am also feeling the baby move regularly now. It is absolutely amazing. I love that feeling so much. Kevin felt it for the first time Monday night, and he was soooo excited. Things are fantastic!

Baby Moving!

I am sure now that the little flutters I have been feeling for about a week are the baby moving now! YAY! I love this stage! I am 17.4 weeks now!

Emergency Room

Yesterday I woke up with a migraine. It was also almost 90 out yesterday. So I got up and turned the air on and laid back down. I tried to spend a lot of time laying down resting because I was in a lot of pain. I was laying down in my bed watching TV and playing with Kailyn. She had brought some toys on to my bed. Well she ended up jumping on me, and her knee landed directly on my abdomen. Then I started having cramping type pains. A little while later, Kailyn got up and shut my bedroom door and went in to the living room. I was still laying in bed with a cool rag on my forehead. A few minutes later I hear a woman yelling hello in my living room, so I jumped up and ran out there. She said "did you know your daughter was playnig outside by herself?" and had Kailyns hand. Kailyn was naked except for a diaper because it was so hot. I said no and started freaking out and thanking the lady. I scooped Kailyn up and came inside and just broke down. I bawled for about two hours straight. I cried so hard that I was throwing up. Anything could have happened. Well all the crying and puking and everything made my head hurt ten times worse, and my stomach was still hurting. So when Kevin got home, we took Kailyn to my parents house and I went to the ER. They gave me morphine and nausea medication, and did an ultrasound of the baby. They couldnt tell gender (I asked lol) but the baby looked fantastic. S/he was moving all around doing somersaults and enjoying life. Heart rate was 153 bpm. Now the cramping is gone, but I still have a headache, and I still feel like the most negligent, inadequate mom in the world. Anything could have happened to Kailyn. I am so grateful it didnt, but I dont think I have ever been more scared and relieved at the same time. I cried almost all night long over the "could haves and what ifs." I put a child safety thing on the door knob, and tonight Kevin is putting a chain on it. I just keep remembering the tragedy stories that sound a lot like that. There was an angel sitting on her shoulder, and for that I am so very grateful. But I still feel absolutely horrific.

It happened!

Last night my stomach was hurting really bad. It felt like cramping, pulling, itching, it just all around sucked. Then this morning I went to put my pants on...and yep, cant button them. Good thing Kohl's is having a sale on maternity clothes!

First regular OB appt

I had my first scheduled "regular" OB appointment today. I have been very nervous because I have been cramping pretty badly. To the point where it was making me lose my breath. (which is why I havent updated my pregnancy blog, because i thought the pregnancy was going to end :-/) The night before last I had a very vivid dream that the baby was big, and moving around, and I could feel it moving and just loved it. Then last night I dreamt that I went to the doctor and they found the heartbeat and it was 162. Today first I had my OB education appointment, where I was told "dont smoke, drink, do drugs, change kitty litter etc etc etc" then we went to lunch, then I had my appointment. I told the doctor that my biggest concern was the cramping. I told her all about it, about how it gets horrible when I am up and moving around, but a few minutes after laying down it feels better. I told her even walking a few feet causes cramping that feels like AF is here. She smiled and kept nodding. When I finished my huge long worry spiel that I had been holding in for four or 5 days, she kind of laughs a little and says "welcome to round ligament pain with your second baby! Its perfectly normal" I really liked this dr, she was very nice, and listened to all of my concerns without making me feel silly. She reassured me that this pregnancy is going to be more painful in that way, and the hip pain way because I am overweight and because this is my 2nd baby. Then she put the doppler on my tummy. I was so scared, I held my breath and prayed. Then we heard the thud thud thud real fast. It was so beautiful. I cried. The heartrate was 172! lol my dream was ten off! So everything is perfect! She okayed sex again now because I am 6 days away from being in my 2nd trimester, and she said the baby's heartrate was excellent, good and strong. So she said she is not concerned with that. I am still high risk, because of the infertility issues I had, but I am good to go for four weeks. My next appointment is the after we get home from Tennessee! Which I also okayed and ran by her. lol It was an overall excellent and relieving appointment.

This is the second ultrasound I had done. This shows the irregular gestational sac, and what prompted the doctors to scare me so badly. They told me the baby would not likely survive the week. The heartrate was also slow at 120bpm.

I am home and feeling much better. Heres the story. We moved on the weekend of the 29th. On the 30th we went to Seattle for the opening day Mariners game. We planned on coming home after the game on the 31st. Well there is mountains in between home and Seattle, and only one highway going over them, we call it the pass. In the winter time, the pass sometimes closes due to weather. If the pass is closed, you basically have to go around the entire mountain range. Well the baseball game got over at about 7, we got to a town called North Bend which is normally about 45 minutes or so outside of Seattle at about 1030. @@ HUGE friggin snow storm. So we turned around and went back to seattle for the night. We had Alex (7), Alisha (13) and Kailyn all with us. So we got home Tuesday. I had my sono on Tuesday afternoon, and the baby is doing fantastic. heart rate was 160, I measured right on, and the gestational sac was perfect. Everything looked perfect. So Wednesday I took Kailyn to the park, and got home and started feeling pretty gross. Thursday I was puking so much I couldnt get out of bed. I started getting chills, body aches, diarrhea, and couldnt keep down anything at all. I thought "oh I am geting the flu" tried to eat and drink, didnt work. Friday night I got so bad that I just sat and cried on the bathroom floor. I couldnt move or sleep. First thing Saturday morning I went to the ER. They gave me an IV right away, and nausea medication. Then ran a bunch of tests. They determined I had an infection somewhere in my body, but they werent sure where. So they wanted to start me on antibiotics. I was still throwing up in the ER room. so they gave me two suppositories on top of the IV anti-nausea and I was still dry-heaving. So they admitted me. The next day was pretty much the same, and by day 3 in the hospital I was starting to feel like I was on the mend. They wanted to keep me that third night, but I asked very politely to go home. I was keeping down fluids and pills, and missed home terribly. So I was released with 6 different kinds of nausea pills and a diarrhea med. I had an ob/gyn from the practice I go to come and check on me and belly bean often, and he said that the baby was not affected by all of this. I am feeling better now. Still tired, still nauseous, but better.

Ultrasound today!

I had my first ultrasound today. It was a bit nerve racking, but I survived! They told me that I am 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant, with an estimated due date of November 18, 2008. Which is interesting because right now Christina's due date is November 17th. Out of all the things in my life that I thought might happen, being pregnant at the same time as her was not on my list. Let alone being due within a day of each other. It is crazy! Anyway they found the sac and the yoke safely in my uterus where they belong. However there was no heartbeat or fetal pole yet. The doctor told me that she was a little concerned that those were not detected and wants another ultrasound in one week to look again. I, of course, freaked out. I was a ball of nerves all day after that. Until I got online and started doing research and talking to friends. Every single website says that a heartbeat can normally be detected at first around 6-7 weeks. I am not quite 5 weeks. So that was unnecessary worry. But I still get another ultrasound next week, which I am excited for!

Symptoms

My symptoms are starting to get worse. It started yesterday. I tried to make Kailyn a hot dog, and the smell of it made me nauseous the rest of the night. Then I could not sleep because my breasts were so tender that I could not sleep on my stomach. Then when I woke up this morning, I felt soooo sick. Today I went to CostCo with my dad, and all the samples and stuff they had, all the smells....oh my gosh I felt so sick. Even though I feel like crap, I am totally excited to have these symptoms get worse, because that means my hcg is still rising. :-D

Today was crazy

Yesterday the nurse from the doctor's office called and wanted me to come in for another Hcg test. I went in this morning to the lab, and AFTER they drew my blood, they told me that they didnt have an order for it. So I went across the street to the OB's office to get an order. As I was pulling in to the parking lot, I saw my doctor pulling in to. So I talked to her in the parking lot. The nurse that called yesterday didnt know why she ordered a third test, so this was an awesome way to get the scoop. The doctor walked up to the office with me and was telling me about my numbers and stuff. She said she just wanted to make sure that they were doubling as they should because they are a little lower than she would like to see, but are still within normal limits. So she ran in and signed an order for me and I ran it back to the lab. The doctor also told me that her 9 month old son had a 102 fever. I ran some errands, then by 4pm they still hadn't called back yet. They closed at 5, stop doing calls at 430. So I call a few times, and dont get any answers. So I just went down there. I get to the front desk and ask for my results. The lady goes back to find a triage nurse. Another woman came up and asked me what I needed, I told her and she went to go hunt down my results. Then a third woman came up and started asking questions. At this point my sister's cell rings and it is the doctor's triage nurse calling with my results, and wanted to know if I had gotten my ultrasound done today. I told her that was the first I had heard of an ultrasound and was in her lobby. So she just came out to talk to me. She told me that they were supposed to order an ultrasound, but because the doctor went home early to be with her son, things were crazy. I understood, but was still freaking out because I didnt have my numbers. By this point I am getting frustrated because nobody was answering any questions, just giving me more questions. Like what the heck they meant by did I have my ultrasound yet when that is the first I had heard about it. So I started bawling (hormonal much?!) right there in front of those three women and my sister. So they told me my number today was 1233, and showed me the notes that the doctor had written down to tell me. The note said "Tell her that her numbers look good, and I am very pleased with the way they are rising. Tell her I want an ultrasound done to check dates." So I calmed down, and the women reassured me that I was not the first pregnant lady to cry in their lobby. LOL! I then was able to schedule my ultrasound for Monday at 1250. I am excited!

Beta HCG

I had my beta HcG tests done last week. On Tuesday my HcG was 47, and on Friday it was 128! looks great! Today I am feeling pretty good. I am feeling kind of emotional, and hungry but nothing sounds good. My cramps seem to be getting less and less. I am feeling more confident every day that this pregnancy will continue great! Kailyn thinks it is hilarious when we tell her that there is a baby in my belly. Last night she randomly came up to me and asked to see my belly. She lifted up my shirt and said "Mom, I am going to tickle the baby and make it laugh, okay?" Then she tickled my belly button and said "see mom, the baby is cute cute!"

I'm Pregnant!

I am finally pregnant again! I am still in shock. I took a test yesterday morning fully expecting it to be negative. I could not believe it when it had a little plus sign. So I took a second test. It said postive too! So I took a third test LOL! It was a digital and said "pregnant". I called the doctor right away, and they quickly got me in for a beta HCG draw. My HCG today was 47. The nurse said she believes I am about three weeks pregnant and due November 17th or 18th. I am unbelievably excited and happy.
So far I have heartburn pretty bad, and cannot believe how tired I am. I have also felt really sick in the mornings for the past few days, had cramping, and today for lunch I had a crispy ranch snackwrap from McDonalds dipped in BBQ sauce mixed with Sweet and Sour sauce and it was the best thing I have ever had in my life. lol!